Week 27: If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn

East Gaston High School is the perfect place to whitness all of the stereotypes of highschool and the cliques that roam the halls. There are

• The popular kids
• The cool kids
• The jocks
• The fringes
• The nerds and geeks
• The emos
• The loners
• The strays/outsiders
• The skaters
• The rebels
• The preps
• The thespians (obsessed with musicals and singing everything)
• The mean girls
• The rockers
• any others that you could possibly think of

Anyways, I have very few friends. Kate, Ashlyn, and Brooke. They are the best. I know it sounds cliche, but I guess you could say we do our own thing. Just like all of the other cliques. But unlike the other cliques, we are the really nice ones. The peacemakers. We try to help with anything we can. We all fight for the attention of others, to be in the spot light. But I never cared for the spotlight until I was shoved into it... literally. Here is how I got there.

One day, I was following my normal morning/afternoon routine: Go to 1st-4th hours and then to lunch  to see my friends. I have to wait until lunch to see them because we all have different interests, but we are close friends because we carry each others weight and have fun. I love them soooo much. We love each other. well anyways... there was a new girl. sitting in my spot. Being the jealous, pathetic, insecure girl I am, I stormed out of the cafeteria pissed off and not caring what is in my way. I flew through swinging doors (who the hell puts swinging doors in the doorway of a cafeteria?!) and I collide with a brick wall.. at least that is what it seemed like. buuuuuut nope. It was a hunk of gorgeousness. I tried to look pissed off when I pulled my food-covered self up off of the floor and stood there waiting for him to say something. But when I looked up, he was searching for my pissed off gaze. We stood there staring at each other. It was really awkward and I got frustrated so I broke the silence. "Well I kinda thought I needed to spice up my wardrobe a little too but this is a little extreme, don't you think?"' And in that moment, I was glad that I am that kind of person that comes up with the right things to say in the moment because we both die laughing. and we kept laughing even when a teacher comes to witness the mess that was being gawked at by a crowd of students I didn't even notice before. I was just so lost in him. And his gaze never left me....... We spent the next hour cleaning up the doorway and ourselves. we both received after-school detentions.

Fast forwarding to the detention...... Everything was awkward and silent until Mrs. Bagel left to flirt with our young PE teacher. She is such a cougar it is just so sickening! anyways, he kept looking out of the corner of his eye to look at me. It was a pain to be in that room knowing we had something between us... so I swallowed my insecurities and fears and stared straight at him. He blushed and then I did. He stared back at me and we sat there smiling and staring and staring and smiling. After about 2 minutes of this, he shifted his body to turn towards me and his angelic voice slices through the air and hits me like he did the day before at lunch. "I'm sorry for hitting you with the door and causing such a mess on you and dragging you into this and stuff... I feel like a nuisance to everyone for what happened..." I swear I died, was re-born as a different girl, and now was starting my life. This was a girl that attracted genuine boys that liked her for her weird sense of humor and food-covered self! A girl that was talking to a guy that seemed to be falling in love but still is respectful and not flirting hardcore! We proceeded to talk about what happened and what we were thinking after it happened and during clean up. What people asked us and things like that. We chatted our way to the end of detention and said goodbye.

Long story short, the new girl replaced me. So I decided to eat lunch with food boy and made friends with his friends. he plays guitar and is in a band. He loves nature, music, adventure, active things, food, and other things i like as well. To everyone, we are the picture of a perfect couple. I call him James Dean because people first love him for his looks, then fun personality, then a great appreciation for his talent. Then after I started calling him that, he started calling me Audrey Hepburn because I tend to be too kind to people, i am too humble, and everyone is attracted to not only my looks but love my kindness. We lived our happy lives until after we graduated high school. I went to college and his band got sooo popular that they had tours every month. We keep in touch and catch up with each other in between tours. He wrote this song for me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=71SvPulAyZI
If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn 

Stay for tonight
If you want to
I can show you
What my dreams are made of,
As I'm dreaming of your face
I've been away for a long time
Such a long time
And I miss you there
I can't imagine being anywhere else
I can't imagine being anywhere else but here

[Verse 1:]
How the hell did you ever pick me?
Honestly, I could sing you a song
But I don't think words can express your beauty
It's singing to me
How the hell did we end up like this?
You bring out the beast in me
I fell in love from the moment we kissed
Since then we've been history

[Chorus:]
They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me

[Verse 2:]
It goes to show, I hope that you know that you are
What my dreams are made of
Can't fall asleep, can't fall asleep
I lay in my bed awake, in my bed awake at night
As I dream of you
I'll fall in love, you'll fall in love
It could mean everything, everything to me
I can't imagine being anywhere else

[Chorus:]
They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me

[Bridge (2x):]
The way that we are
Is the reason I stay
As long as you're here with me
I know I'll be OK

[Chorus:]
They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me

(I couldn't love just anyone, I was created to love just one baby)
They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
(I couldn't love just anyone, I was created to love just one girl)
Please stay as long as you need

(I couldn't love just anyone, I was created to love just one baby)
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
(I couldn't love just anyone, I was created to love just one girl)
Please stay forever with me

Week 26: I Hold Back the Mean Words

I think of things, funny things, to say all of the time but I hold it back. I try to avoid being the bad guy that did any wrong in a situation. It bothers me sooo much when people think they need to put their input into everything. Or they are immature and share their immature thoughts all of the time. People's pathetic drama makes me want to smash my head against a wall. They can't control their mouths... This is making my chest hurt just thinking about all of this. I really need to work on that. I can't stress over all of these things that aren't important.

But on the other hand, I wish I could have told people more positive things. I wish I wasn't so caught up on my own thoughts and problems to see the beauty and joy in moments in the past. I wish I said "I love you" more and took more chances to appreciate people. I wish I wasn't scared to do what I wanted. I wish i said all that I wanted because the words I could have said would have made a big difference in EVERYTHING. Words I can no longer share...............

Week 25: My Life's Theme Song Would Be A Long One

a theme song for my life? wow. that would be really hard to think of. my song would talk about going through rough times but it all gets better to remind myself to look on the positive side. I would probably have Kellen Quinn sing it cause I LOVE HIS VOICE! OOO or Williamette Stone cause his voice is pretty dreamy too! OOOOOO or Justin Timberlake!!!!!!!!! I can't decide!!!!! anyways, it would always make me happy to sing it and it would encourage me to stay strong and keep moving forward! I'm always looking for inspiring things cause im the kind of person that needs constant reminders that everything is going to be okay. i need constant reminder that im worth something. that someone cares. someone loves me. I haven't found the perfect song yet.... i might write it myself!

Week 24: Inside Jokes Are The BEST!!!

I HAVE SOOOO MANY INSIDE JOKES WITH PEOPLE ITS RIDICULOUS!!! but i can't think of a lot on the top of my head which sucks. they just pop in when ever and make me laugh so hard i cry and might pee myself. most of the inside jokes are of stupid stuff that me and the person said or did. like i sleep talk and walk A LOT. its crazy! so people make fun of me for it and have a good laugh. I do stupid stuff that people recall all of the time. i mess up sentences and slur my words and that is also glued in their head for a while. I love making fun memories with people!

Week 23: Australia is My Dream Vacation

Australia is a beautiful place to visit! And the exotic animals are really interesting! I dream of going to Australia and touring their national parks and doing many things! I love wondering in nature and swimming and there are many beautiful and exotic places in Australia to do those things! Here are only some of the places I want to visit in Australia!

Great Barrier Reef: 
beautiful blue! beautiful sea life! but unfortunately, i will only see dead reef cause almost all of the reef is dead.



Trekking in forests and many other places (and of course staying for a few weeks):
I LOOOOVE HIKING AND EXPLORING THE WOODS!! soooo fun!


Royal Botanic Garden:
If i was rich, I would have gardens like these!

Sunshine Coast:
This giant picture of sunshine coast makes me want to dive right into its blue water! I love swimming!


MORE AWESOME PLACES TO SEE IN AUSTRAILIA, BUT THERE ARE STILL MANY MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Darling Harbour
Jenolan Caves
Noosa National Parks
Lamington National Park
Nitmiluk National Park
Whitsunday Islands
Sea World Gold coast
Dreamworld
Lake Eyre