Week 8: Home is Where I Grow

After i was born, i was brought to my mom and dad's trailer in Kings Park (in Peoria). i lived there until i was 3 1/2. Then we moved to 100 Court Street East Peoria Illinois, 61611. I lived there until i was 12. I moved the summer of 6th grade to Washburn. Pretty smooth moves and all big steps of my life. My childhood took place in East Peoria. East Peoria was my home. I had friends come and go. I made tons of memories there. Do i miss it? somewhat. Do i want to go back? no. Now i'm not going to tell my life story but over half of my memories there at that house are bad. which is very unfortunate but its the truth. I moved to Washburn wanting a fresh start and make good memories. i did get to do both of those. but only to come to find out, i wish i hid in my shell. Yes, i do have a lot of good memories in Washburn. but all of them had a bad ending to them. Also unfortunate but true..... Now that i am preparing to apply for colleges, that is all i can think about.  A new beginning. And i will stay in my shell so i don't get hurt. but the again, i always tell myself that. the fun everyone else is having by just being themselves is so tempting so i dive right in to that pool they are having the time of their lives in only to find out that the water holding them was an illusion. i fall flat on my face and i blame myself for it. Ugh. I know im probably depressing you but i thought i should just be straight forward. sooooo yeah. But the question was, what is my home? Well, I think my home changes. as i grow in to an adult, i realize home is not just a house. Home is not just a memory. Home is inside of me. Home is where im supposed to feel safe and secure but i dont feel any of those anywhere except with my dad. he is my protector. so maybe my home is where ever my dad is. or maybe, home is where i grow. if you think about it, it makes sense. but i dont have time to explain soooo yeah. i hope you get what im saying. if not, drop your questions in the comments below. have a good night everyone.